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01:23 am: Ew...
 So I have this problem where...I really need to tell a person something but I dont know if I should, wait till I see them in person. This is just confusing me. I just want this problem to go away. Thank the lord I am living in portland this summer really. It makes me very very happy. other then my problem, I love life!

05:13 pm: Life.
 School is over in bassically  a month!!!!! then just dead week and finals which I only have one woot woot. 
I am gonna live in portland over the summer really excited about that. 
I am really good, just lving life, making music, and loving where I am. 
I am now gonna go hang out with the girls and then eat some food yup yup. 
I love life :)
 

09:46 pm: So  there is this guym and he is really cool. 
I am pretty sure I like him, and I think he might like me too.
I am very happy, he makes me happy. :)

11:31 pm: New  year...so much happens in a year even in the past month...

My sister is married which is weird but not at the same time. 
I love school...lol even if it is hard the people make up for it.
I love life...I am really happy with where I am at it is amazing!
I am learning and experienceing things, with a diffrent view it helps.
Taking risks is painful but the reward is so outways the pain.
My sisters are amazing. 
That is bassicaly it...I love life!

08:01 pm: So I havent posted in a while and I figured I would just Vent about things that bother me lots.

The Registration process!
The way my room smells I dont know what is it
My roommate coming in at 2 in the morning and turning on the fing light.
Being sick
Freakin modern (there is nothing I can do.)
Ballet for next quarter (maybe I just wont take it)
Money for christmas
how much I spent on the freakin tape and DVD-Rs for my project
how tired I am 
How much I want a boyfriend (I feel lame saying that)

Things I am EXCITED for!
Nutcracker
coming home
See people
making cookies
sleep
Grays Anatomy!
My fluff friend lol
This weekend!!!!!
Spending time with my family.



ok that is all. I am going to take a little nap.

08:28 pm: Ok  Well I havent posted in a while so  this is my list of things + is good - is bad

+ Thanks giving is in a week!!!
+ I bought milk and oatmeal cream pies today :)
- I am am super confused
+ Abby visited and it was lots of fun
+ might go swimming later 
- havent seen my other sisters in forever.
- wish i was talk to someone
- worried about my lingistics grade...
+ my train ticket home was only 15.30 woot woot
+ Grandpa Joe is gonna come visit me :)
- I want a boy. 


Ok thats all lol have a wondeful day, week, month, life.

06:35 pm: Wow ...it has been almost two months since I updated this. Life is so unexplainable and so random, I love it. we fall we get up, we find ourselves in situations we dont understand but later might. I think I am begining to understand some from the past. I know that not everything will be better right away and I will always have days where I dont want to be here. But I know I can get through them becasue I have people around me who help and I know now that I have the strength to do anything. I think the thing that got me through the last two years of high school was one teacher, She told me evey day that I was going to take over the world. I really dont think she understood at that point where I was, but her words all ways made me want to be there and made me want to learn all I could. It is people like that, who make the world better and that is who I want to be even if I dont make a huge diffrence I want to at lest help one person I want to make the diffrence in one persons life.

05:44 pm: So on call for this month for work and got my schedual for next month....which is good I need the money wish I had more time this month but whatever. working tomorrow day shift...kind of exciting sad that this is my first time opening and I have worked there for over a year hahaha. so anyways. school starts in a month, getting out of here! I havent posted so I thought I would...this post is wierd. ok bye

11:53 am: it needs to happen...
but it will hurt
in places we didnt know 
it will take time to fix
but it can happen
we can get through it
we know that 
we are strong 
we are us 
shit happens
we make it work 
the good that will come
will even out the pain
I have said to much
and not enough 

05:26 pm: Words I love:
Free
On me 
come in at 8:30
Half day
Dounuts
Fariys
Coffee
Fugeciles
Pizza
Harry potter
Air planes
French Fish
Music
Anything mimi says hahaha
sleep
food
ok I think I got everything
Tounge rings... haha

Thats all I come back to the other side tomorrow..but I have a show but everyone should come see it. I love life

02:49 pm: in my head...
Thoughts that might kill me
I dont know where to go
Dont know what to say
How do I make this better
with out hurting more
I am sorry 
dosnt feel right
I wish I knew the words
That would help me see 
the way to go 
the path to take
I want to stop but cant
Let me learn 
Let me Learn the Hard way.

04:36 pm: this last week was really nice because my father wasnt home...but now he is and it sucks. whatever, I leave for school in three months

06:30 pm:

What happens when life hands you to many lemons what do you do then. I hate what I am doing I hate this situation I need to stop this.

08:11 pm:

hahahahaha

09:49 am: Well this weekend and the last two weeks will be the most remeberd graduations in my family ever...last friday abby went into the hospital, saturday megan was pinned a nurse :) sunday was her and carries grad party...tuesday Abby came home an exciting day for every one....but friday afternoon she went back to the hospital...I graduated and went to grad night :) and at 2:30am my little sister went in for sugery again...this morning my dad left for virgina and my little sis is still in the hospital and today is my grad party...man I have a crazy family well keeps us in your prayers love you all

04:12 pm: today
I graduate....and today I finaly learned I think I hope it took me a while but I think I am there, I know I need time to heal and that I will but I am actually pretty calm about the whole thing

05:43 pm:

Boys confuse me.

I dont want to do this anymore but I dont know how to get out of it.

03:47 pm:

On this day of today:

Abby Comes Home!!!!!!

I broke my Glasses :(

last full day of high school :)

I think that is all

love you all!!

07:45 am: Abbys in the hospital sad day.....anyways I woke up really angery and so now I am listening to guys and A-hole Music which rocks my socks. I really need to do something (Amy knows lol) before I go insane.

10:07 pm: Well tonight I went to my sisters and it was a lot of fun.....we talked about every thing. 

I love them x1200